i need better boots

my new boots are adorable but the suede leeks black and pink stains onto my socks when they get wet. i need some serious winter hiking boots so that i can take long walks in the middle of the night. i feel like i need to turn into a writer. i've got so much to say and no one to say it to. sometimes i try to share the inner workings of my mind but usually i avoid that because when people inevitably don't "get" me, i tend to feel more alone than ever. with no real outlet, i just feel like the thoughts flow around into a giant mess inside my head and the good ones tend to get lost forever. i've never been able to keep a private journal because i don't know how to write to no one but i think i should start giving it a try. i feel that it would be a good step for me and might allow me to set some more concrete goals for myself.