farm sitting

life is continuing on and i think i'm dealing well. my heart feels heavier in my chest and i think about her every second but i don't think i show it. thank goodness for oreo and for billie's baby, opal. i've been spending a lot of time with the two of them. i'm living at the farm for three weeks at the moment. i'm one week in (and what a week it's been). i didn't like it at first. the nights are quiet and lonely and spooky, but i'm getting used to it. i'm supposed to be out here writing my thesis but i haven't done a thing. i applied for a job yesterday but that's all i've accomplished. maybe monday :(

it's been 72 hours since she left. the only reason i believe it is because i stroked her face and there was no life inside. i miss her.

rest in peace

this morning i lost one of the best teachers i've ever had. i'm going to miss her more than i can describe.